a quirky little introductory rant

Here I am...

25, partially unemployed and almost half-witty...

Going through a quarter-life crisis during a worldwide pandemic and the best thing I can come-up with is this blog.

"What kind of blog is this?" I ask myself, not out loud because that would be weird. Just in my head, as usual. Trying to figure things out, that's usually where I start...and finish.

Silently, thinking way too hard if you ask my boyfriend but thinking none the less. It almost never stops. Anxiety? OCD? Bi-Polar Mania?

No-- by nature, I am just nervous. That's what I say anyway.

"Why so nervous?" I really don't know. I remember being this way as a child. Trying to make the right moves at the right time. Not really wanting to be seen or noticed. Just wanting to...be but without all the extra.

"What's the extra?" I don't really know. I just know I don't want it. I have always wanted a quiet lifestyle. Ducked off, tucked away...hidden. So, as an adult I learned to soften my demeanor to a smear, became a bit more dainty, and just tried to blend in.

I suspect when you shine so brightly, on accident there are things that just make you want to hide.

"Shine so brightly, on accident." Elaborate.

Maybe some other time. This is just an intro.